twisted feelings

Subject: twisted feelings Fri Jul 31, 2009 7:49 am

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I walk with him still wondering why he was walking with me, his hand warm against mine as he holds it , I can't help but look down to it puzzled by why his hand is much bigger than mine or if it is just how it is , if everything about the male is bigger.

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"Confusing you from what?" Kyle asked tilting his head

Subject: Re: twisted feelings Tue Aug 04, 2009 12:24 am

I look at him "you act as if you want to be freinds but then you do things that say you want to be more" I look at him to see if he understood what I ment.

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Kyle scratched his head "If you want to be more, I don't mind" Kyle said smiling

Subject: Re: twisted feelings Tue Aug 04, 2009 6:17 am

I shake my head "its ok , it was just an observation I wouldn't want you to be uncomfortable " I say with a smile

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"What you mean uncomfortable" Kyle looked at her

Subject: Re: twisted feelings Tue Aug 04, 2009 7:49 am

Turning to look at him I spoke again " you seem the type whos not comfortable around ... the other sex" I say looking around at the lake

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Kyle jaw dropped "Im not gay >.<" Kyle said

Subject: Re: twisted feelings Tue Aug 04, 2009 8:39 am

I look at him "no..no. I didn't mean it that way " I sigh slightly upset i had offended him "I am sorry if It came out that way , I meant not experianced with girls, you hesitate around me." I say hoping I haven't offended him again.

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"Ohh I'm not hesitating, you don't look like normal girls to me so that's why" Kyle said

Subject: Re: twisted feelings Tue Aug 04, 2009 8:50 am

I look at him over my shoulder I hold the dress infront of me, letting it fall i look at him "do I look different now?" I ask wondering what he meant

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Kyle blushed and looked away "No not that kind of different, like personality different something like that" Kyle said

Subject: Re: twisted feelings Tue Aug 04, 2009 8:54 am

I let a small smile slip to my lips as I dress , once done I move to sit beside him again "In what way?" I ask looking at him " tell me why I am different?"

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"Well normal girls always hang out, but you're different you just stay alone" Kyle said

Subject: Re: twisted feelings Tue Aug 04, 2009 9:01 am

I smile at his words and look at my hands "I stay alone bacause I am afraid of what people think of me "I say sighing "I am not exactly like other girls " my eyes turn to look at him the lilac flashing in the sun.

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"But you're not different from others" Kyle said

Subject: Re: twisted feelings Tue Aug 04, 2009 9:09 am

I look up at him "I was borught up in the ways of the mistic "I hold up my charm "I am bound to find the one who will make this glow, only he can relese me form my fathers grip" I say letting it rest on my chest.

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"Ahh I see, your life must be pretty hard" Kyle said

Subject: Re: twisted feelings Tue Aug 04, 2009 9:25 am

I lok at him once more "I move from place to place drawn by a sense of learning , knowleadge and a finish to my learning is what drives me , but here "I look around then to the school "something tells me a finish is close at hand" I turn my gaze back to Kyle "you see why I stay alone , to make freinds I must stay long enouph but I can't"

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"Must been hard for you to live" Kyle said he looks at her "Being alone all the time"

Subject: Re: twisted feelings Tue Aug 04, 2009 9:35 am

I sigh and nod "It is lonly" I say playing with a loose strand of my cloak.

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"Well you won't be anymore" Kyle said "You got me as a friend" he said smiling

Subject: Re: twisted feelings Tue Aug 04, 2009 9:44 am

I smile to wards him "I like that very much"I say it sounds like a begining but I know it is also an end of a long search , this was the end of my wondering but I know kyle is not the one to brack my lock the charm remains silent around my neck.

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Kyle smiled at her and he pets her head giggling

Subject: Re: twisted feelings Tue Aug 04, 2009 9:48 am

I smile with a small chuckle "funny" I say still smiling now more relaxed "so what else do you like to do?"

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"Hmm lets see" Kyle said thinking