twisted feelings

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I walk with him still wondering why he was walking with me, his hand warm against mine as he holds it , I can't help but look down to it puzzled by why his hand is much bigger than mine or if it is just how it is , if everything about the male is bigger.

I smile back "you truly are a good friend" I say

"Thanks same with you" he said smiling at her

I give a blush at his thanks but it was not necessary he had not taken advantage of me and I was glad of that fact. "do you want to stay here a bit longer, it is a nice day so far and the son won't set for at lest another hour"

"Yeah lets stay" he said smiling "I like the sun anyway"

I smile and look at him getting a warm feeling from him and the sun above "you really are a good person"I say smiling as I sigh . Sitting I look over the lake at its beauty and smile.
" A something in a summer’s Day
As slow her flambeaux burn away
Which solemnizes me.

A something in a summer’s noon —
A depth — an Azure — a perfume —
Transcending ecstasy.

And still within a summer’s night
A something so transporting bright
I clap my hands to see —

Then veil my too inspecting face
Lets such a subtle — shimmering grace
Flutter too far for me —

The wizard fingers never rest —
The purple brook within the breast
Still chafes it narrow bed —

Still rears the East her amber Flag —
Guides still the sun along the Crag
His Caravan of Red —

So looking on — the night — the morn
Conclude the wonder gay —
And I meet, coming thro’ the dews
Another summer’s Day!"
I look at him still smiling

Kyle looked at her "What was that?"

I chuckle "a poem , I some times just like to resit poems if the moment feels right" I look across at him "and it did"

"I see that was nice" Kyle said smiling at her

I smile back to him "Thank you" I sigh once more one of deep thought "My mother said I had a natural talent for seeing the beauty in all things even the bad" I say caressing a flower that bloomed not far from me.

"Guess you're mother was right" Kyle said moving closer to her

I nod " guess she was" I say noticing him move closer I look at him "sometimes it is a bad thing, I get too close to things and it hurt when it doesn't work out "

"But it hurts even more if you don't get closer" Kyle said

I look at the ground and nod "yes it dose , I guess that's why I stay alone so I don't feel the hurt" I say moving my hand from the flower to my knee.

Kyle held her hand "But I'm here now right?" he said

I look at him and nod "yes , you are and I know it will hurt more if it doesn't work between us" I say holding his hand back , my fingers closing around his .

Kyle got closer to her and blushed, he looked into her eyes and kissed her

I look at him and then felt his kiss my eyes searching for his reason "why did you do that?"I ask confused "you have a girl friend"

"Because I like you" Kyle said blushing

I look at him "you kissed me because you liked me" I said "then I should kiss you because I like you to" I say returning his kiss with one of my own ,.

"Well it can be more then like" Kyle said looking into her eyes

I look at him "this is where the hurt comes , I can not the charm says you are not the one" I say turning my head away "I wish it could be different , I truly do" a tear runs down my cheek.

Kyle licked her tears, "Hey come on it's okay, I dont mind" Kyle said

I look at him my lilac eyes letting my tears still run "but I do " I say "I have searched for two years and still nothing" I wipe away a tear from where it falls to my hand .

Kyle kissed her "Well don't give up now" Kyle said

I look at him "I can not give up, to do signs me into a life of slavery to ..him" I say shivering even at the thought.